its only the first day back to school and i'm already stressed out.
actually, stressed out isnt the right word for it. maybe i'm just longing for summer to come, or sick of school work already.
i'm surprised i'm not freaking about the diplomatic handbook more than i am. i'm being really calm about it, and am working really "diligently", wich is insane behavior for me.
besides the normal nervous-ness about returning to school i'm a wreck.
my head isnt wrapping around anything it should. my brain is quiet, and calm, unlike my normal buzzing self.
and with my head napping, by body's been anything but calm. my hands were actually shaking after lunch today and i can't stop my feet from insescently tapping on the floor. since friday i've had "fevers" on and off, where i'll get dizzy and burn up for 20 minutes and then get really cold before it goes away.
AND BESIDES all that,
comming back to schools been even more akward then usual. i swear there must be somehthing socially wrong with me. during breaks and vacations i always make plans with people, saying we'd definetly get together over the break. when break comes around, i spend it catching up on sleep, fooling around on the computer, and people watching on 3rd street. if i get together with anyone, its almost certainly sara. everyone else just requires planning, and i'm too busy to plan anything, or communte the hancock park to just hang out.
i guess i'm trying to say that
i'm confused and completely drained.