NOTICE

i'm feeling really cold today.
cold in all the sense of the word.
i feel cold as in i'm wearing sweatpants under my skirt, a long sleeve polo, and a fluffy sweatshirt over it.
cold as in i'm sneezing like you would not believe, and my head feels stuffy.
cold as in desolate and lonely.

i'm half way through a really interesting project, and i'm completely stuck. theres so many directions i could go, so now i'm frozen in place.
i have so many tests this week.
the scariest one, history. didn't we have one last week? when did we have time to go over the entire history of Africa? What? Did I miss it while I was sneezing?

i feel like this school isnt right for me. its a great school, and i have fun most of the time, but the other part of me relieves events like someone saying "Julie, your awesome! Your the Bes- Hey Emma! Come sit with me!"
i just dont feel like i really fit in, and i probably should since we've been here for a year and a half. and it looks like i'm here to stay, because Laura has her admissions interview tomorrow.

NOTICE
"does no one notice?
that i’ve cried all day.
that i’ve lied the the entire time.
that i’m scared out of my mind.

did you notice?
that i’m lost.
that i’m cold.
that i’m alone.

how did know one notice?
not one silent scream.
not one distant person.
not one crying eye."