why is my mind always in reruns?

it's like 2:15 am.... in the morning.... on SUNDAY.....
party was good.... didnt end until like midnight, wich was really late since it started at three pm.....
then the 7 people who are sleeping over and me went swimming and the neighbors yelled at us for being loud....
then we watched a lot of gilmore girls episodes, because i love them and so does the entire world or at least everyone in the house now.
most people are still up.... i think someones passed out in the guest room. i think i'm gonna sleep soon.....
i'm totally exhausted.
on another note, i think i'm going to the beach tomorrow if i wake up before noon.
if not, i'll stay at home in bed watching marilyn monroe movies that teach me great life lessons like how to marry a millionaire and how to cheat at dice.
starting monday i go to some sailing camp for the week.... sounds good enough.... it gets me out of the house.
gosh i love summer, it takes me a really long time to just chill relax and take time to do stuff that takes time to do.
like clearing my brain and such.
today i realized that when i am angry i sleep.
i dont know why i realized that... i guess i finally connected the dots.
specially since after i heard ________news i took a three hour nap. i'm just too tired to deal and its not worth the energy.
i have been in my bathing suit since noon today and i've been swimming three times...i am typing this outside on the porch but because it is so cold i put sweatpants and a longsleeve t over my bathingsuit so they are sopping wet now too and my hair is a curly frizzy mess of chlorine and caffeine.
maybe the reason i sleep when i'm angry is that i just dont care anymore. i'm achey and hurty and a million other words a four year old would use to describe how they feel when they scrape their knees. but i havent scraped my knees. i havent actually dont anything to hurt myself.
i am just tired and hurt and angry and i need sleep and a hug but everyone here is either drunk or wet so i will go to sleep and pretend these things just dont happen.
some days you are the windsheild, some days your the bug.
why is my mind always in reruns?