fill in the blank.

well that took long enough. i've been sitting here waiting for the browser to load.
i dont know what to have for lunch today.
i still have time to order pizza or a salad or something. but i dont really feel like moving, and i'm a little short on cash. i'll probably buy from the caf. because i have plenty of caf money. so a bag of Doritos and a Coke it is.
i got kicked out of the big lab just now because of a AP social sciences class, so i'm sitting in the little lab. someone is playing a maroon5 song. normally i woulndt care but since i have the flu, 5 hours of sleep, and a headache its driving me nuts.
maybe everything is just driving me nuts right now, or at least i have a pretty long list. i have swimming last period today. that sucks. its litterally 55degrees out and i have the flu, so this should be mounds and mounds of fun.

i'm being a really bad person because i dont update very often, and when i do, its boring and rambling and completely negative. i promise i'll try harder to be a better blogger, or at least more positive.
anyway...

we just had a big assembly for the dance program at skool. everyone in any dance class here has to preform something. the dancing was ok, but it made me want to puke because everyone was either estremely skinny and beautiful with great hair, or a giant who never seems to be as good a dancer as the skinny girls. you cant help but feel bad for the bigger girls. and you can feel their self consciencousness reeking off the stage. then you're engulfed by the awful thought that there is no middle area. just the two extremes. and then you realize that you could never be THAT skinny, so you must be the other category. and that makes you never want to eat again.
a great confidence booster, right?

so much for being more positive.

10 mins. till lunch. i'm going to sign off now. then get in line for lunch. buy. eat. mumble something to "friends" about too much homework. and escape akward conversation about all the fun stuff they did together over break and hide back up here in the lab.

yes, you dont even have to say it, i know.
i'm a loser, loner, fat ass, nerd, ________.
fill in the blank.