damn frosting and sprinkles

you know how today should have been really good for me?
last day of stuff for 3 months. summer break starts
well, it was horrible
even when my dad's not here, he's got this awful little grasp on my entire life
it was supposed to be a fun girls night, but instead it was just horrible
someone tried to break into my house, i wasnt here, and no one told me until just now
and nothing happened but everyones stressed, so it was really not a good time to bring up selling my grandma's house and sorting out her will and stuff.
and i completely cant believe that i'm doing that again and i feel sick and stupid and dizzy just thinking about it
and it all started with that damn cupcake.
and the best part of my day, was finding out a poem i wrote about suicide got published.
ironic isnt it?

and now i'm crying and your not talking but thats ok because who wants to talk to this damn crazy girl anyway and its dark and that damn boy wont stop playing drums

one things for sure

so my exams are at 9 and 12:30....
i was the only one on my huge bus this morning for like 4 stops.

now i'm sitting in the library typing this.
there are hundreds of desks lined in neat rows all empty and staring at me.
i'm thinking of ordering pizza for lunch. either that or something else.
i dont think i'll go to larchmont.... i'll just stay here i guess.

this is my last academic day of the year. woot woot for me.
i want to get out of here
and just

DO.

making waves

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finally finished studying.
its all done, and i feel good.
dad's going to witchita or somewhere tomorrow, so its girls week all week.
i'm so excited for the summer,
today made my head want to implode.
if i see another irregular verb i'll scream.

i really feel like posting a picture.
but i dont know of what, so i'll go find one.

long gone are the hazy shades of winter....

you confuse and amaze me

memorial day party was funfunfun
fun times a million.
sara's friend lexy is awesome. she me and sar are like brain twins, we make the same jokes and laugh uncontrollably at the same things.
today was great.

vb practice tonight.
i hope no one else comes so me and sam can throw things at jason the whole time.
studyings going good....i guess. not much fun, but it is what it is.

right now, i am wearing a digital watch
and
life is good.


(again)

Life is Good.

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so its like 10:40 now and i've already:
-gotten up,
-ran 3 miles
-showered
-crazy danced to more postal service
-piled all my clothes into a heap
-moved the pile because Sid Cat was buried in there somewhere
-read the funnies
and
-made a quesadilla.

i am a productive person when i'm not procrastinating.
who knew?
not me.

so i figure i'll start studying at 11am.
now is my 20 minute warning.
i'm happy i have a 4 day weekend,
and no exam today
and memorial day party sunday
and no school today
and its friday
and
and
and

life is good.

crazy & caffeineated

so i got home today a little before 1....
english final was a breeze.
then i went running to avoid being in the house with my dad.
when i got back and showered he was gone so i pulled out kim's lap top and spent the afternoon napping and watching Die Another Day on DVD with sid cat.
that is most certainly a very good way to waste an afternoon.
band of the week is most certainly the postal service, since i've had Give Up on repeat for the last 4 days.

now i'm deciding between going upstairs again and reading, or trying everything in my closet on to see what to wear to memorial day party. decisions decisions.

o and hollar if you want to go see Star Wars with me tomorrow. during the day, cause of family stuff that night.

crazy & caffeineated.
julie.

howdy ho....
so its waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay early for my exam.
its at 9, and i got here at 7:45. b/c my dad being the considerate genious he is thought i had reg. school hours today and that he would take me on the way to his meeting about laura's math stuff. whoopee.

now i'm studying for english (kinda).
one of our vocab words is "vituperation".
i can use it in a sentence.
my dad was full of vituperation when i said i would rather go on the bus that with him and be an hour early for my test.

well, it doesnt matter.
after this, i home at about 12:30, and have a 4 day weekend.
nothing can bring me down.

its really early in the morning and i've already made a striking discovery.
i would rather times a million be on a bus with 40 other people for an hour than be in the car with him for only 30 mins.
sad but true.

ok, i'm off to do some last minute review of clauses and Tess of D'Urbervilles.
arg arg arg.

so i came home and went running.
it was nice after sitting on the bus for so long.
it was 40 minutes late because of accidents on the 405.
its my dads birthday. he's old.

today, last gimore girls club of the year.
great party. yummy food.
year book signing is my faveorite thing in the whole world, i must say.

write more later

....because the pilot was a tomatoe!

so....
volleyball tournament this morning.
was awesome. came in 1st in our pool.
cheers for green!
i came home and took the longest shower because gyms smell like old gross men.
then i did a face mask thing, except i fell asleep and i left it on for 30 mins instead of 10.
tip: dont ever do that.
now my face is bright bright bright red.
and there are normal colored skin lines around my mouth and eyes where i didnt put the stuff on.
i called the 1-800 number and i got a recording saying i would have to call back during bussiness hours or leave a message.
i left a message. it said "ahhh! my face it burns! damn you nuetrogena!".
i wonder if they get alot of those.

now
i have to study.
for exams.
poo.
but sara is making me cookies.
for memorial day party.
wich is the highlight of my year. i swear.
they are so much fun!

well... off to study. arg.

when the lawn mower cuts off your toes, dont come running to me.

i met the coolest guy today.
except i met him in the nutritionists office.
his appointment was right before mine...
the weird thing is that he wasnt at all fat or skinny, he was normal (with hot arms)
he lives in santa monica, 10th grade at crossroads i think, his name is gordon and he's taking japenese. we talked for a while. he's read The Perks of Being a Wallflower too. i gave him my cell number, but he's too old for me. maybe we'll just be friends.

the most amazing thing happened today.
they canceled the science final.
mr bryon made it official. i asked him at lunch, and it took all my effort to leave his office before i jumped up and down screaming.
now all we have to get through is the most trap project wich is ok.

friday night my mom's leaving for new york for the weekend.
grandma's house is officially for sale, and she's going to help sort through all the stuff leftover. i wish i could go. i hate living so far away from everyone, i miss out on all the good "memories" and stuff. mom tried to tell me that we have our own memories from when grandma lived with us, but i'd still like more east-coast memories. and i still wish i could go.

but hey, thats life, and this is los angeles.

soggy saltine sofas

o
my
gosh
.
gilmore girls just ended.
season 5.
o my gosh.
loreli asks luke to marry her? omyfuckinggod its about time.
rory is falling apart, but i've decided she has gone temperarily insane so who cares.
we didnt see suiki at all in this episode, i wonder how the babys doing?
tomorrow is wednesday.
thats a good day.
i meet with that stupid nutritionist again.
she likes to use words like "horific caloric content" and then giggles.

i'm exhausted.

yesterday i read a really great book.... a really fast read but really well written.
its called "Fat Kid Rules the World" by K.L. Going.
i think i would like having the last name of Going. i bet she's got some great puns. but the book is really good. it starts with a 300 pound 17yearold standing on the wrong side of the yellow line in the manhattan subway. he's considering suicide by F train. how the book goes from there to him becoming a rock star is amazing. recomended to all. i never could imagine a woman writing so well from a guys p.o.v.
also, "the perks of being a wallflower" is good too.

the fog rolls in every afternoon around 6.
by now the whole house is drenched in salty ocean.

friday the 13

so its friday the 13.... ooooooooo.
i just got out of my last math test before the final....
lunchtime and A is aqua day, so i'm not sure if we'll have Gilmore girls club.
aqua day is so much fun! 2 hours of pizza and water balloons instead of being in assembly. after that i have PE, and free period so nothing academic after 11:30 for the entire weekend. the only hw i have is cultural presentation crap for history. does the country project ever end?
after school today, going to alej's house until the dance tonight. i expect it to completely stink but they're always better if you dont have expectations. i have a pair of really cool shoes i;m wearing tonight. if i describe them you'll think i'm crazy, but they really are cool.
plans for this weekend? to sleep alot and go see Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy. i've read all the books, so i need to see the movie.

ok, g2g....
english...............
house on mango street.

love is being stupid together.
paul varley

jersey girl

watching Jersey Girl, eating dark chocolate, drinking multiple cokes.
earlier i finally saw Finding Neverland. and just as Carter predicted, i was crying without even knowing it.
ok, so i just saw the part where ben afleck asks "where are we going?" and liv tyler says "to your place. we're going to have some sex." and we just burst out laughing.
that was the funniest thing i've ever seen.

set free your rubber souls!

its cold again.
june gloom.
i dont mind except that i still dont have a comfy uniform sweatshirt.
i need knew shoes too. my converse are completly fallen apart, the rubber sole part came out of the shoe, so you could see my socks. its probably not smart to wear them now because it should rain soon.

i cant wait untill this weekend. it should be fun.
saturday night i'm going to a bar mitzvah, and i'm skipping the volleyball tournament earlier saturday, because going would be equivalent to jumping off a bridge for my saniety. then sunday, mothers day, me and the sisters and my mom go to our traditional Norm's milkshakes. we spend like $20 in quarters in the little machines with the claw that try to grab stuffed animals. its really fun. tg my dad's always back east on mothers day weekend. for some visual sciences conference that he speaks at.
also--- got the 3rd season GG on DVD last night. went to borders right after school!
i kno, i'm such a nerd.
i'm still exhausted, and i dont know why. at school, my free period always seems to be paired with A, PE, and breaks, so i have these 2 hour blocks of nothing almost every day. normally, during the middle of the year, i would kill for free time like that, but now, i just want to push all my classes together so they end sooner, get over exams, and finally be Summer vacation.
and i'm craving the Kay's Memorial Day chocolate chip cookies.
but because of this "new diet", its carrot sticks and fiber shakes for me.

i'm off to find alej and catherine for B period fun in the sun, except its too cloudy and wet to go on the damn feild.
ta ta kiddies.

I want to be someone who believes

"Believe in me
because i don't believe in anything
I want to be someone who believes
Mr. Jones and me tell each other fairy tales

When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely
I will paint my picture
Paint myself in blue and red and black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful
Gray is my favorite color
I felt so symbolic yesterday
If I knew Picasso
I would buy myself a gray guitar and play
Mr. Jones and me look into the future"
--Mr. Jones.... counting crows...