hitchhiking to hell and back

i spent today in my room.
curtains drawn, door closed, heaped blankets, crushed pillows, empty diet coke cans.
me
with my stupid untamed hair, crumpled pajamas, and only four painted toenails.
singing along with Tom Petty, the postal service, and Pat Benatar about gunslingers, Clark Gable, and Lipstick Lies,
the only company in a lonely box.
Sara's at disneyland with her other friends.
I called Person1 wanting to talk, because i need to talk.
when Person1 answered I froze and lied and sang the "I'm bored" song instead of the smash hit "Hey, I need a little help here" song.
Its too hard to say exactly what i mean.
its hard even to give a rough picture of whats going on,
and everyone knows i suck at drawing.
i can doodle and crosshatch, make jokes and funny faces, but when it comes down to it,
i just can't take it seriously, realisticlly.
maybe i just can't deal with reality.


tomorrow i'm going to mammoth for a week.
i love how my family tells me important things i need to know,
like when we're leaving town, or even if we're leaving town.
i guess a "By the way, we're going skiing in the middle of June, bring a sweater" is too much for them.
and yes, the slopes are still open,
whether there is snow on the ground, is a different story completely.
Guess what my least faveorite sport of all time is?
3 guesses, and its not chess, golf, or backgammon.

and after hell on skii's, i'm off to Reno for the volleyball tournament.
a very well deserved 8 days away from my family.
and a cruel punisment of 10 hours in a car with my volleyball team.
so, this is probably the last post for a while...

and if any of you see me on the side of the I-90 with my thumb out....
dont just drive by.

gamble and drink polietly or go to your room!

there are still a million people here....
tonight is my dad's grad party....
about 60 grad students who have worked with my dad come for my mom's great food and free beer.
me and sara always play DJ, but she is at Disneyland with her other friends.
so for her replacement, i convinced James (after 3 corona's) to help me and we've sang "Video Killed the Radio Star" a lot of times over and over....
yes, i am a little tispsy.
we've been playing basketball outside too
but the funniest thing is to see "grown-ups" playing a drunken game of freeze tag.
its Pat's last Grad Party....
he's worked with my dad for 9 full years. thats a long time to be in college.
he taught me how to do a lay-up and intrudced my family to lazar tagging.
he's moving with Joesephine to Phillie where he's doing stuff at Penn.
also
theres like 5 different card games going on....
i won $6 playing blackjack.

the funniest part so far is my dad telling my little sister to
"gamble and drink polietly or go to your room!".

thats one for the books.


more later when everyone leaves....

i'm losing, arent i?








its to the point that i cant even say more.

happiness and a camera

1. What is your name? Julie

2. What color underwear are you wearing now? Stripes!

3. What are you listening to right now? Tom Petty’s “Learning to Fly” (life will beat you down, AND steal your crown!)
4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number? 15

5. What was the last thing you ate? iceing!

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? I’d rather be a Sharpie please

7. How is the weather right now? Juney gloom

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? That stupid solicitator!

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex? Eyes
10. Favorite Food? Chicken pasta

11. Favorite Drink? Diet coke, duh

12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? Bubble trouble martini haha

13. Favorite place to shop? anywhere

14. Hair color: brown-ish

15. Eye Color: hazel-y

16. Do you wear contacts? No

17. Top or Bottom? Left or right!

18. Favorite month? November

19. Favorite fast food? In&Out…. One word, milkshakes!

20. Last Movie you Watched? The Big Sleep…. I love you, Bogey!

21. Favorite Day of the Year? I don’t play faveorites

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? No

23. Summer or Winter? fall

24. Hugs or Kissess? Decisions, decisions….

25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanillia for ice cream, but chocolate rules the world.
26. Do you want your friends to respond back? I hope they have better things to do with their time.
27. Who is most likely to respond? Sara, because she loves me.

28. Who do you want to respond? Stupid question.

29. What books are you reading? Everyone should read Running With Sissiors, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, and Hitchhikers, but now I’m reading A room with a View.

30. Favorite TV Show? Gilmore Girls

31. What is on your mouse pad? a sunset….

32. Favorite board game? Clue!

33. What did you do last night? Played poker with my sisters

34. Favorite Author? I actually don’t know.

35. Who inspires you? ____________insert answer here.

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Pop!

37. Dogs or cats? Meow.

38. Favorite Flower? Yellow roses

39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M.? arg.

40. Do you still talk to your best friends from middle school? Graduation, was like last week loser.
41. What's on your desk? Wrapping paper and tape/,

42. Rock Concert or symphony? Rock conert

43. Play or Opera? play

44. Have you ever fired a gun? I have a rubber band gun on my desk too!

45. Do you like to travel by plane? Jet blue, we like you too.

46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Righty o chap

47. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter? smooooooth

48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3

49. City you live in? los angeles

50. Ever hitchhiked? Yea

60. do you believe In love? sometimes

61. Single? sometimes

62. Regret things? sometimes

63. What are you scared of? Nevers.

64. Ever been called a Tease? yes

65. Wanted someone you can never have? (dramatic pause) every minute of my life!

66. What are you happy about? I went to the park today

67. Ever gotten drunk? yes

68. What are some things you want to do before you die?Dance
69. Favorite quote? “There is no way to be truly great in this world. We are all impaled on the crook of conditioning. A fish that is in the water has no choice that he is. Genius would have it that we swim in sand. We are fish and we drown.”—James Dean
70.What do you want that you never have? Stupid question… everything.
71. Two things you want? Happiness and a camera.

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I love you, too.


so i sat on the swing
and cried with the wind and the dark
in the playground.

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

hands with character

today was really cool/
we went to the crafts fair in santa monica....
(everyone with nothing to do tomorrow should go too, it was amazing. its at the civic center)
and a lucky thing happened there.
i found a ring
a ring that actually fits my hand
MY short, stubby, round, biten finger-nailed hand.
the guy at the fair who sold me the ring said i had "hands with character",
i say they're just julie hands, cracked and fat
but that would be self-deprecianting, and thats bad,
so erase it from the records.

i'm babysitting the lewis's at 5.
its gonna be a long night.

but i want to!

IMG_3013
Originally uploaded by sprinklefairy831.

so
i spent today going thru all 3 THOUSAND digital pictures in my iPhoto library...
i've got the total down to somehwere around 1,200....
arent you proud?
you should be.
so then i uploaded my camera, and sorted that out.
if you want to see absolutely awesome pictures of bill in a gold Elvis jumpsuit, then you should most definetly visit this link
http://flickr.com/photos/43272275@N00/
that should bring you to my page at Flickr.com but if not, my username is sprinklefairy831 .... just do a search.

more later because i love you

unanswers

kicked ass in vb tournament today.
such a rush!

tonight the return of the 4400....
whos excited?!
that would be me.

goodness gracious...
today i had so much to say...
so many highs and lows
and in betweens

dont ask why because i dont know.

your perfect verse

there are times that you shiver because you are thinking of someone, something, some time, that is that was so absurdly, infinietly, imperfectly perfect
and times when you shiver when you are
just cold.

"I was waiting for a cross-town train in the london underground
When it struck me that i've been waiting since birth to find
A love that would look and sound like a movie so i changed
My plans and rented a camera and a van and then i called you
"i need you to pretend that we are in love again" and you agreed to

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and i yelled "quiet on the set"
And then called "action!"
And i kissed you in a stye that clark gable would have admired
(i thought it classic)

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?"
--Clark Gable--
The Postal Service

story of my life.....

Lets Make it Legal

i spent my today watching Marilyn Monroe movies and getting a hair cut.
my hair is straight and beautiful instead of the regular curly mass atached to my head.
its so pretty and shiny! i'll post pictures later...

ahhhhhh... tomorrow is finally tomorrow.
i know its a half day, but wat time do we get out? comment and let me know.

o and i made tomatoe soup too.
its really good.
yum.

post more later, when my head doesnt feel so light.

adios mis amores.

WARNING: radio activty if consumed!

one breakfast option you should never eat is 3 slices of cheese and diet coke.
my stomache yelling at me and critiqueing my dicision making skills.
again.